I was going through my Facebook memories yesterday morning and saw that two years ago I was having unwanted passive suicidal thoughts. I remember that day quite vividly. I was happy with my life but battling to maintain stability. I was fighting off a bipolar mixed episode and adjusting to a new dosage of my … Continue reading When You Have Intrusive Suicidal Thoughts
I am crawling out of my depressive hole. I've been struggling since last month, stuck between a mixed and severe depressive episode. Combine that with fibromyalgia pain that ebbs and flows, and financial stress. Makes for fun times. *rolls eyes* Today would be my daughter Shirley's 11th birthday, if she were alive. She was stillborn. … Continue reading Story of Shirley
I should be doing something. I don't know what, there's always something to do. I feel jittery, full of energy, but it takes so much effort to get off the damned couch. It's both irritating and confusing to feel this way. Do I run around the house full bore, cleaning and multitasking while forgetting where … Continue reading Grabbing water drops from a waterfall of thoughts
I have pondered starting a blog or diary of some sort for a few years now, but every time I sit down to write, I draw a blank. Not today. Last evening I had an interesting conversation with my hubby, and it got the wheels turning on different ideas and thoughts I have in my … Continue reading A Candle In a World of Darkness
Sparkles in the Shadows 