Gettin Ready To Give’r

I don't know what it is about the new year that gets me so motivated to turn over a new leaf. It's literally just me celebrating the earth doing a full rotation around the sun, and setting intentions based off of that. But I'm also Jewish, and Pagan, so I celebrate two other New Years …

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Catch Up Time

It's been quite a while since I've sat down to write. My mind has been a jumble of random thoughts and ideas, and I am finally going to write them down. I was last active in 2019/2020, and while I haven't been writing for my blog, I have been writing in various journals. Now that …

Sweet Sixteen

It's a beautiful day. The sun is shining, blue skies, birds are singing. It's the perfect day to celebrate a sweet sixteenth birthday. This celebration will be bittersweet, however as the birthday girl is no longer with us. She died on her birthday, she was stillborn. I didn't always celebrate my first daughter's birthday. For …

Living With Multiple Illnesses

Life is hard. It's difficult to navigate without directions and instructions, you have to figure it out on your own. You can't follow other's paths, for their journey is their own. You have your own path to follow, carved by the decisions you make every day. What happens when you're living with a mental illness? …

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My Diagnosis and Beyond

My name is Miranda, and I have Bipolar Disorder 2 (ultra-rapid cycling). I was diagnosed with it on January 9, 2012, after months of severe postpartum depression, and years of clinical depression/unipolar disorder. Along with my bipolar diagnosis was a borderline personality disorder diagnosis. Apparently the two conditions tend to go hand in hand. I have read that many people feel shattered when they receive their diagnosis. Not me, it was like a breath of fresh air. It was as if the elephant of burden that sat on my shoulders decided to take a hike. I finally felt some relief, but it was short lived. What did my conditions mean? Where would I go from there? Would I ever be normal? What do I do now?

I dug my steel toes in and did some research. Ok, a ton of research. I went hypomanic researching my…

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Story of Shirley

I am crawling out of my depressive hole. I've been struggling since last month, stuck between a mixed and severe depressive episode. Combine that with fibromyalgia pain that ebbs and flows, and financial stress. Makes for fun times. *rolls eyes* Today would be my daughter Shirley's 11th birthday, if she were alive. She was stillborn. …

Grabbing water drops from a waterfall of thoughts

I should be doing something. I don't know what, there's always something to do. I feel jittery, full of energy, but it takes so much effort to get off the damned couch. It's both irritating and confusing to feel this way. Do I run around the house full bore, cleaning and multitasking while forgetting where …

A Candle In a World of Darkness

I have pondered starting a blog or diary of some sort for a few years now, but every time I sit down to write, I draw a blank. Not today. Last evening I had an interesting conversation with my hubby, and it got the wheels turning on different ideas and thoughts I have in my …