The Borderline Battle

I'm stable but I'm struggling, if that makes any sense. My bipolar disorder is stable, but now my borderline personality disorder is raging. I'm battling with myself constantly, trying to stay level but it's getting harder to do so. At the moment, I am level. I feel logical and rational, but that won't last for … Continue reading The Borderline Battle

Living With Multiple Illnesses

Life is hard. It's difficult to navigate without directions and instructions, you have to figure it out on your own. You can't follow other's paths, for their journey is their own. You have your own path to follow, carved by the decisions you make every day. What happens when you're living with a mental illness? … Continue reading Living With Multiple Illnesses

Living with Grief

I'm having a bad day. It's just not my day, I guess. There's this heaviness that I can't escape, it weighs on my soul. It's been there since the day I got that fateful text about my Momma, on October 9th. She passed away on a Wednesday, October 10th. I've come to terms with her … Continue reading Living with Grief

2016 in Review

Oh, hello! *waves* I know, it's been forever! Too long, in my opinion. Where the hell have I been for the past year and a bit?! Nowhere extravagant or foreign, just the old and familiar setting of the caverns that is my brain. Mentally speaking, that is. Physically, I have been a hermit. I've stayed … Continue reading 2016 in Review

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My Diagnosis and Beyond

My name is Miranda, and I have Bipolar Disorder 2 (ultra-rapid cycling). I was diagnosed with it on January 9, 2012, after months of severe postpartum depression, and years of clinical depression/unipolar disorder. Along with my bipolar diagnosis was a borderline personality disorder diagnosis. Apparently the two conditions tend to go hand in hand. I have read that many people feel shattered when they receive their diagnosis. Not me, it was like a breath of fresh air. It was as if the elephant of burden that sat on my shoulders decided to take a hike. I finally felt some relief, but it was short lived. What did my conditions mean? Where would I go from there? Would I ever be normal? What do I do now?

I dug my steel toes in and did some research. Ok, a ton of research. I went hypomanic researching my…

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Grabbing water drops from a waterfall of thoughts

I should be doing something. I don't know what, there's always something to do. I feel jittery, full of energy, but it takes so much effort to get off the damned couch. It's both irritating and confusing to feel this way. Do I run around the house full bore, cleaning and multitasking while forgetting where … Continue reading Grabbing water drops from a waterfall of thoughts

A Candle In a World of Darkness

I have pondered starting a blog or diary of some sort for a few years now, but every time I sit down to write, I draw a blank. Not today. Last evening I had an interesting conversation with my hubby, and it got the wheels turning on different ideas and thoughts I have in my … Continue reading A Candle In a World of Darkness