Soooo, you want to know more about me? What can I say, I am a (little) bundle of crazy. Perhaps, if I may quote Anne Frank, “I am a little bundle of contradictions.” Translated to English, mind you. Yes, maybe that fits better. I have a contradicting personality, you see. When I have thoughts, I see different viewpoints that tend to contradict each other. I can see both sides to a debate. In that aspect, I am a contradiction. When it comes to matters with mood swings, again I am a contradiction. It depends on my mood. Everything depends on my mood.
There we go, something about me: I am emotional. Extremely emotional, and sensitive. A huge part of that stems from my conditions. I have bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder, among other illnesses. You wouldn’t believe it if you saw me. I hide it well. I learned how to do that years ago. Put on your mask and face the world. I still wear my mask at times, when I need to for my own protection. I’m an empath, an emotional sponge. I need to wear a mask around toxic people or people with toxic behaviours, I should say. I believe there is good in everyone. Some people may not believe in themselves to see it or believe in others, but I do.
There’s a few things about me that you didn’t know before; you learn something new every day.
Here’s some more tidbits:
I love my life, my family, and my friends. I am happy and I choose to be happy. I could be miserable, it’s so easy to pick out the flaws in life and all of the shortcomings. I focus on the positive. Yes, I am a borderline bipolar panda but that’s just part of who I am. My conditions don’t define me, and they will not destroy me. My son is high-functioning Autistic and that is a part of who he is, but it doesn’t define him. There is so much more to life than a diagnosis. Focus on the good stuff and work on the not so good stuff.
Hmmm, what else is there to know about me?
I love my children. I am spiritual. I am an insomniac. I have a fondness for all animals, and nature. I love chocolate. I dislike beets. I enjoy baking and going for bike rides. I love snuggles and reading books to my children. I am a nerd, nymphomaniac, and an introvert. I loooove chicken fingers and poutine. I’m a Pisces. Bubbles and shiny things distract me. I keep a stash of bubble wrap in different areas of my house for when I feel stressed. I have an addiction to cutting/self harm. I am terrified of Howard the Duck.